missed. .

So. . 24 days has passed. . .

so. . . where have I been? erm . . .guess doing some soul searching? haha! i think.
Anyway. .a lot has happen and "A" change has taken place. . .Everything is so different right now even with the same people same environment same bed same house same family same friends same and same and same and same. .

okay reality is checking in like right at this moment. . .

so ya i'm getting older by the year so i have to start thinking and be wiser! hmph! *motivated. (hur hur hur hur expression with a grin.)

Did some planning while I was gone with what i'm about to pursue in the future in terms of career, studies, love life and stuff. But then again, it's just planning part but it doesn't necessarily mean that it will happen BUT i hope for the best.

Holidays are here. . .but somehow it's not a HOLIDAY for me. .with the final year project preparation- work planning etc plus 10 weeks of industrial attachment.

welcome to the real world. . . this is reality and not my LALA world anymore..

The other reality I have to face will be the fact that i lost someone whom i have always regarded as my biological mother. Someone whom ive dreamt and wish to spend my time with in the near future and be pampered by her. However, everything was just a thought and that it will never be a reality now. Only god knows how i feel eventhough we are not blood related. It was hard for him but it is and was also hard for me too. Now that she's gone, I still feel her presence here.Everthing about her is still clear in my mind-her warm smile, her always jovial expression. .
*snuggles