should i or should i not?

about being ready.

how do I know if I am ready for it?

if i am up for the roller coaster cycle 'thing' again if it happens?

are we strong enough to handle it?

for a start, im still in doubt.

things like how do i know its for real

how do i know its not going to be end.what more ending it with the 'predicted' ending.

i know want it to be a stop and go kind of thing. I want it to be for as long as i live.

at the end of the its all about what i want. .but the question is it the right 'want'?

*i think im talking in riddles. hard to understand? nyea. .its simplified.

khad, im sure you know what im trying to say right? winks.